One thing my husband and I are focusing on at this time is putting one foot in front of the other and just moving forward. Its a bit of a struggle because both of us are feeling quite dull or uninspired. Yes, we know this is a logical and expected emotion.
For me, my days have been quite flipped around. I know today is Thursday and yet I woke this morning and thought, well… its been exactly one week since my mother-in-law died at 7:08 a.m. our time. And then, I realized, nope I had passed that moment yesterday and didn’t even realize it.
The laundry sits on our floor waiting to be sorted and folded. I had pulled all of our storage containers out last Wednesday morning and planned on sorting through them. Pulling out clothes that fit and packing away winter clothes, keeping out only a few sweaters and pairs of long sleeved/legged items for cooler weather. So now, thanks to my children’s *help* I have tons of clothes all over. The mess just makes me want to scream.
But not pick it up, lol!
Today I plan on burning a candle and having my favourite “Invigorating” aroma therapy oils in an infusion over it. I find I react really well to aroma-therapy. And hope that will cut through some of the fog and get me moving more enthusiastically today.
That being said, I did more yesterday than I did the day before. Last night I cooked one of our favourite meals, Coconut Curried Beef. Again, I slipped up and added too much lemon juice. I’ll admit I’m a little liberal when it comes to that lemon juice!
Yesterday was my brother’s birthday. So my husband and I drove out to my parent’s farm, where he lives, and decorated the door to his apartment with the kids. It was fun and I think we needed to do that.
I also have a cousin-in-law who owns a nursery in Cambridge, so we stopped by and explained our family plans to create a memorial garden and he advised us of the plants we could plant and about how much space to prepare, how to prepare the soil, etc. I told friends yesterday… the last thing you want is to plant a memorial garden with the children and then… have it wither and die!
So yes… each day is consisting of pushing ourselves to do a wee bit more than yesterday and just putting one foot out and moving forward. And coffee. I will admit there are copious amounts of coffee involved.